2nd Opinion.. or maybe should I say 3rd?!

Robbie and I decided back in August that we would take a much needed break from the fertility roller coaster we have been on. I am still not having cycles and ovulating and we are ready to get started again, but I just felt like I wanted to get a different opinion on everything. Dr. Ke has said IVF was my only option left... And that is just soooo much money! So, I went to see a different OBGYN that has dealt with patients with fertility issues. She said I was wayyy out of her ballgame! But I am glad I went today to talk to her... She said it sounds like I might not have a great set of eggs either... I have never been tested for that. They do that before IVF though so they know what they are dealing with. I got her to check my thyroid just in case... So it was not a total waste of time going! She suggested not getting my tubes blown out which is what I was thinking I would probably do next. She said if she were me that she would just do IVF. My case is perfect for it and that is basically my only option. In a sense I am glad she was telling me the same thing Dr. Ke has told me, so I wouldn't second guess myself if we decide to go that route that I was making the right choice... but it was just hard to hear for some reason. I definitely cried on the way home! I have not gotten that emotion about this journey in several months. But today I let my emotions get the best of me.

I vaguely discussed this with Robbie and my total desire that is taking hold of me again to do IVF. He said we would discuss it tonight further and in detail, but I think this might be our way to go. It is definitely the only way to go. I have a doctor's appt with Dr. Ke on Monday April 4, so hopefully we will have everything squared away to begin this soon. I have all the medicine just sitting in my refrigerator! I definitely want to get this show on the road. I am ready to close the book to this chapter in my life. I guess I will update later on when we figure out what we are going to do and the timeline and finances and everything... Please please please PRAY! Prayer is a powerful thing and we need it!

Update

I am still going to see the chiropractor! I am down to twice a week! I am on Cycle Day 52. I still have only had that one cycle since going to the chiropractor and my pregnancy tests are negative... Hopefully things with look brighter soon!

Hope

God is so great, powerful, and almighty. His word speaks boldly. I heard this scripture about a week ago and I am very thankful God showed it to me through a special unspoken circumstance.

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

Rachel and Leah

I have been really trying to dig into God's word lately and it is amazing how much God has taught me. I struggled with primary infertility while trying to get pregnant with Ryder. It was easy to find stories in the Bible that related to what I was going through then... Hannah, Sarah, Elizabeth. But struggling with secondary infertility I never really could find anything that really seemed to relate to me in the Bible. Now after 22 months of dealing with this, God has really spoken to me through His word. I reread the story of Rachel and Leah. A story that we all learned about growing up. But something really struck me in the heart as I was reading this passage the other night. Both suffered secondary infertility. It is found in Genesis 28 and 29. Take a chance to read it. You will be amazed and comforted. Rachel was barren, but Leah became pregnant and gave birth to a boy on 4 different occasions. After Leah's 4th son Judah was born she stopped having children. Leah saw that she had stopped having children. Her son brought her mandrakes. Leah went to Jacob and they slept together. God listened to Leah and she became pregnant with a fifth son and then a sixth son and then a seventh child, a daughter. Then God remembered Rachel, listened to her and opened her womb. She became pregnant.

The words that really spoke out to me was, "The Lord listened to her and opened her womb." Right then and there I really realized how important prayer was and how much the Lord does answer. God can take an infertile woman such as myself and allow me to become pregnant if it is His Will. The Lord placed this scripture in my life a few nights ago for a reason and I am very grateful.