Limousines

I am a nosey person. I must confess! I am an extremely curious person. Watching people at the mall, listening to the conversation at the table next to me during dinner, reading comments on people's Facebook pages... well, you get the picture!

Being the nosey creature that I am, it drives me crazy when I get just a glimpse of something, but I cannot see the entire story. Case in point: limousines with dark windows! They drive me nuts! I know there has to be someone important inside--I just can’t see them. Is it a famous actor or actress! If I could only get a glimpse of that face! If they’d just roll the window down, I could see inside! I speed up or slow down to try to get a peek, but no matter how hard I strain to see what this glamourous vehicle carries, I cannot see through the darkened glass.

We had a limousine drive through our neighborhood this past Saturday night, and of course, I did not know who was in it! Until later... It ended up just being some of our neighbors down the street!

But this scenerio is like infertility.

For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.
1 Corinthians 13:12

It would be so much easier to live under the weight of infertility if we knew why. Why does God allow my heart to be ripped apart every time I see someone else with a bulging belly or spit-up stains on their shoulder? Why do so many of my friends have baby showers while I have appointments with fertility specialists? Why can’t I see His hand in my life? Why can’t I see His plan?

It’s because life has darkened windows just like a limousine!

For now we see through a glass, darkly. For now, we cannot see the plan God has so lovingly designed for us. It’s easy to assume that the vehicle of our lives is empty--there could be no great treasure inside! Now we know in part. We know that at least for a time we cannot conceive. Now we know it’s hard. Now we know we beg and plead for a baby but God’s silent answer of “no” resounds through our ears like a thousand trumpets.

God knows it’s hard to see only a part of His plan. He knows it’s tough to only be able to eavesdrop on heavenly conversations and not be able to hear God’s every word about your life. But hang on! We know in part, but one day we will know fully.

If we knew every aspect of God’s plan, where would faith come in? What need would there be to trust God? If we knew fully now, there would be no need to peer into the Scriptures, to strain to hear the voice of God. There would be no reason to strive to seek His face.

One day, you’ll know fully. Until then, keep eavesdropping on Heaven’s conversations. Peer into the darkened windows. Seek His face.

And every time you see the darkened windows of a limousine, know that one day, the window will roll down. You’ll finally see the treasure God placed inside of your life through the vehicle of infertility!